Friday, June 20, 2008

What Do I Know?

I've been listening to the song by Addison Road called "What Do I Know of Holy". I have tried to add it to my playlist but I guess the free playlist people don't know about the song yet. You can hear it on
I really like the song. There is a complete humility to the song that I think we don't take to God enough. We study our bibles and learn theologies but when it comes down to it, what do we really know of God?

There is a speaker by the name of Louie Giglio who has some pretty famous sermons in which he shows a bunch of amazing photos from the Hubble telescope (Josh has the DVD if anyone wants to see it). When he puts everything in perspective with these photographs, you are left with this feeling of utter insignificance....sounds pretty hopeless right? Wrong. You are actually also left with this incredible realization that the God who made this vast (and boy do I mean vast) universe cares about you and me.

This song is kind of like that for me. I started out thinking I knew so much but after listening for awhile and trying to put it all in perspective, there is so much of God that is still a mystery. We stand here on the edge of God, trying to take in more than our minds can possibly fathom. All the while, there are galaxies upon galaxies of God that are not visible to our naked eyes.

I came across this in some reading.

We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. No, we speak of God's secret wisdom, a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began. None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him" - but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.
--I Corinthians 2:6-10

I really like that last line. Just when we thought it looked pretty bleak, God gives us hope that we can know Him.

In this spirit of humility, I wanted to tell you all about one of my favorite parts of the new "Chronicles of Narnia" movie Prince Caspian. It is towards the end when Aslan tells the four children and Caspian "Arise my kings and queens". The four children arise but Caspian stays kneeling with head bowed. "I meant all of you" says Aslan. Caspian looks up and says, "I don't think that I am ready." Aslan replies lovingly, "It is for that reason, I know you are."

Here are the lyrics to "What do I Know of Holy"

I’ve made you promises a thousand times
I’ve tried to hear from heaven
But I talk the whole time
I think I made you too small
I’ve never feared you at all
If you touched my face would I know you
Looked into my eyes could I behold you

What do I know of you
Who spoke me into motion
Where have I even stood
But the shore along your ocean
Are you fire, are you fury
Are you sacred, are you beautiful
What do I know
What do I know of holy

I guess I thought that I had you figured out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How you were mighty to save
But those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who you might be
The slightest hint of you brought me down to my knees

What do I know of Holy
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame
And a God who gave life its name

What do I know of Holy
Of the One who the angels praise
All creation knows your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love

Blessings, Courtney

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Love of a Father

Sadly, there are so many people out there who have never known the love of a father. Fatherless homes seem to be more the norm lately than a rarity. I guess, that is why I feel so much gratitude today for being surrounded by amazing fathers.

My two grandfathers are great. Papa Jimmy is smart and witty. He always challenges you to think outside the box. I think he is one of the very few grandfathers I know that can navigate the internet right along with the youngins.

My papa Melvin is a soft-hearted man who has passed along a love of family that is strong and will last for generations. He also passed along a love of ice cream!

Few fathers model the fatherly love of Jesus like my father-in law. He is "slow to anger and abounding in love". He is a picture of patience. Believe me, we've tested it.

There is no other man quite like my Daddy. He has done everything that he could to help us be strong, independent and capable human beings. He has an amazing work ethic. He is one of the very few daddys who can do just about anything a mommy can do. He is an incredible "pee-paw". And he is deeply loved by his family.

And finally, my husband. A man that can say he's sorry even when his wife can't and knowingly looks for the "i'm sorry" in other things. A man who is willing to turn his life upside-down to answer the call of God. A man who has the complete adoration of his three beautiful children. A man who is aware that most important thing he can do for his children is to love their mother completely. I love you.

Happy Father's Day.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Sea Grove Beach

Yes, it's been quite awhile since the last post. Life has been so full. We are still trying to settle ourselves into our new house. There are still many boxes to be unpacked but it's starting to feel like a home. We have enjoyed swimming at our neighborhood pool and spending time with new friends. Emma had her birthday/ going away party at the end of May (pictures still to come). I turned 30 (that's all I'll say about that). And, Last week we took a much needed vacation to Sea Grove Beach, Florida with my family. It was amazing. If you ever get the chance to go to the beach down around Destin, you should totally do it. The beaches have clean white sand and the water is crystal clear. It's just gorgeous! Jackson absolutely loved playing in the waves which kind of suprised me since he isn't much for being splashed. Emma had a blast snorkeling with her Grandpa, looking for sea shells and catching crabs. Leah didn't care much for the waves but she did like playing in the sand and she got a little more comfortable in the water after some time at the pool. Josh "took on the jellies" (one of Jackson't favorite quotes from Finding Nemo). Josh got stung quite a bit one day when there were a lot of Jelly Fish in the water. The next day the Jelly Fish were gone but he got a little sea sick after snorkeling for awhile. I think he had a pretty good time overall though. It's been awhile since he's gotten to go with us to the beach. We stayed in a beach house a couple of blocks from the ocean. It was very nice. We played lots of card games and Balderdash in the evenings. My sister just got a Wii game system (ya, that's what they really do in Med school) so we played that too. I'm not a huge video game person but it was really fun, especially Tennis. I would have liked to practiced Guitar Hero some more but I do have 3 kids to take care of. :)

Here are some pictures from our amazing week. It's a little cloudy in these but the pictures that we took in the sunshine were a little washed out because the light was so bright reflecting off the water...